지불

가슴 떨리는 사람이고 싶었다 동화처럼 아름다운 사람 눈물밖에 나지 않는다 이 세상에서 나는 다른차원에 가치를 두고 온 무가치한 사람인 것 같다 내게 주어진거라고는 시간을 낭비하고 낭비한 시간에 고통받고 멍청해서 사서 고생하는 그런 거지 같은 유전자, 운명, 팔자 어떻게 해야 될지도 모르겠다 내가 유전자를 남겨봐야 나의 자식도 똑같은 고통만 느끼다 가게 되는 것 아닐까 허리가 너무…

Sinking again

다시 슬픈 감정이 들었다. 친구한테 맞아서일까? 다음주에 예정된 욕먹을 상황 때문일까? 답변 없는 여자 때문일까? 친구와 담배를 핀후 집에와서 샤워를 하고, 클래식을 듣고, 차를 끌여마시며 테드 중 토니 로빈스 영상을 좀 보니 기분이 좀 나아졌다. 하지만 여전히 불안하고 답답하다. 어딘가에 갖혀있는 것 같다. 나아질 수 있는 걸까? 내 안에 광끼가 있다. 다시 기타를 쳐야할 것…

Evolution of education #1 Background

Recent 100 years was the most radically changed era for human history which has been years with incredibly improved technologies to vary directions. Despite of improvement regarding human’s life for instance efficiency of movement, information utlization rate, or et cetera, there’s still things that has rarely been evolved. The one of them is education. The…

Consistency is the strongest one.

For 2 months I didn’t coded anything even a byte but by my friend’s favor I coded a class with 4 lines today. Yesterday my frustrated friend, who is just delivering Chinese food when he’s 35 years old this year, declared in front of me and 2 other friends that he’s gonna solve one single problem of…

How to escape from swamp of frustration

To express your emotion that you’re feeling that you’re a creep who don’t belong anywere To concede your shortages and flaws. You’re radically nothing, weak, useless To achieve very small goal like push-ups for 2 times per a day, or something like that To make plan for this year with the slow, trifling steps.

Buy a domain first 도메인부터 사라

First day having individual domain and blog. 5th of May, 2007 Children’s day in Korea One of my best friend suggested me to buy a domain after he got one recently. Apparently his blog is a sort of chronicles of an individual brain-outcomes which is good as I feel some kind of desire to have…